Pebbles--

Been a while since I did this and a lot has happened. We lost our oldest Sheltie unexpectedly in October. She wasn't old for a Sheltie. She was 2 months and 3 days from being 12. No visible/noticeable sign of a problem and was by all appearances fine when I left for work. I took her sweet face in my hands and ruffled her furr before I left for work and told her I loved her and would see her when I got home. Later that morning I received a call from my husband that she had a seizure and when he picked her up, he thought she was gone. Her head was all the way to her right and she was stiff. He picked her up and managed to get her out of it but I told him to take her to the vet anyway to have her checked out as she had never had a seizure before. He thought she had one on the way over to the vets office but she was just confused coming out of the first one. She did have another within 30 minutes after getting to the vets office which I later found lasted 3 min and 12 secs which I understand is a long seizure for a dog. She had been on the treadmill the night before which was common. 3 to 4 times a week for 15- 20 minutes was her treadmill time. She LOVED the treadmill. She was fine at the vets office for 4 and 1/2 hours until I went to pick her up and then within seconds after me arriving she had the seizure she never came out of. This STILL haunts me. I didn't see her before that final seizure. My husband told me that when he picked her up from that first seizure he said "Pebbles please don't die here". It's like she listened. The plan was for me to bring her home with anti seizure meds...all her bloodwork came back fine. It was determined after the test came back fine, she most likely had a brain tumor. I knew it was borrowed time we would have with her but it would be worth it. I and my husband NEVER had ANY idea she would not come home. I have to stop right now because the pain is still very fresh and its a loss we will most likely not ever recover completely. I can't continue tonight...